Hi Dad, Christmas is everywhere. I know that we haven't spent Christmas together in quite a few years, but I am reminded of you a lot. I see kids with their dads out buying gifts or the Christmas tree (which was our job when I was a kid... you and I would always go pick it out together). I miss you so much... things were going to be different. I know we weren't going to spend Christmas together this year, but I felt that we were closer now than we have been in so long. You were doing so good, being the good person that I knew you could be all along. I wish you could have held on a little longer. I know that's just me being selfish. I hope that where you've gone is wonderful and so much more than we have here on Earth. I know I'll see you again someday and we will always be together. Things were going to be so great over the next year... we had one trip planned and another one beginning. I wish we could've had that. I hope you're happy and at peace. I also hope you are satisfied with how we handled everything... We didn't have a service for you and I think that's what you wanted, but we never talked about it. We also had you cremated. I think you wanted that, too, but I also wanted you with me all the time. You are in a beautiful wooden urn on my shelf. Travis also has some of you in an urn that he picked out. I know that would make you so happy to know that. I'm also mailing a little bit of you to Aunt Lee... she misses you so much. We have made a promise to stay in touch. I know how much that means to you as well. Dad, I hope that you know that through everything that happened over the years, I NEVER stopped loving you. You're my Dad and always will be. My heart hurts so much... I can't believe that you're gone. Please watch over us and visit me whenever you can. I know that's you I see in my dreams. I hope you are able to read letters in heaven <3 Love Always, Jen